leavin it all behind March 14, 2008

hey all!

this week hubby and i took an old buddy of his (mark) and his good friend (elena) out to dinner.  they are both unemployed and homeless…

…because they quit their jobs to travel together the rest of the year!

tomorrow they are leaving the country and will be staying in barcelona, spain for a few days, then taking a train to montpelier, france, where they will take residence for the next three months.  they dont really have a formal itinerary—so it will be a true adventure!

after three months, currently the plan is for mark to travel in africa. (everyone—especially his family—is trying to convince him otherwise. LOL.)  elena plans to travel europe—including biking in the swiss alps (i think?  SOME mountains! hehe) and visiting her family in romania. 

then around christmastime, they’ll meet back up here in WI and start to integrate themselves back into normal society. hehe.     

it was a blast hearing how they’ve prepared for the trip and what their expectations are.  but out of all the things they told us, i think what i was most surprised about is that in france, a bottle of wine is cheaper to buy than a bottle of water!  hahaha!!  

they’ve both started their own travel blogs and i encourage you to stop by!  elena’s adventures captures the travel experience from the vantage point of someone who just takes it all in.  and mark’s 2008 travels chronicles all the important—and sometimes funny—little details and nuances of taking such a big plunge in life!

quitting my job and leaving everything behind for nearly a year would be something i’m not sure i’d ever do.  but i’ll live vicariously thru them. hehe.  for now at least…i guess ya just never know! 

i think they are very fortunate (and brave. or crazy? hehe!) to be able to do this!  i wish them the safest travels and adventures they will treasure for a lifetime.  

au revoir, mark and elena! have a great time!!

~josey~
 

2 lovely friends :) March 9, 2008

today i am especially thankful for a few of my friends 

 

kelly, i am so glad we’re back in touch after 15 long years.  i love yacking for hours on the phone and laughing about stupid things we’ve done. (or NOT done. hahaha…)  i’m so happy you’re online, too—its fun IM’ing or reading your new blog!!  we are so much alike even tho we’ve both changed a lot since high school.  you talk sense into me and cheer me up when i need it most.  you honestly dont know how grateful i am for that!!  (so i’m telling you now!!)  you’re talented, loving and silly!!  and i love ya, girl!!

amy, tho we’ve not met in person, i hope you know i appreciate you greatly!  your almost daily encouragement in my weight loss journey (and the myriad of other subjects that come up!) has been just what i need.  you know we’re desperate when we start betting paypal $$ to motivate us. LOL!  i truly look forward to that familiar email: RE: Daily Check in.  hehe!  on top of that, you’re a good mom and a compassionate person and it shows—even online.  i’m so blessed to know you!       

i am so fortunate to have people who genuinely care about me.  and i want the whole blogosphere to know how special these two women are!  and that’s just in my life.  i know they touch others as well!!

happy simple sunday

~josey~
 

virtual thankfulness :) November 18, 2007

i was in the middle of typing up a blog entry for today, and it involved thanking a few special people i’ve gotten to know a tad bit since i’ve moved to the big-ole-blogosphere just a little over a month ago. 

then i noticed rolando over at r playground had a new post, so i hopped over there…and by golly, he was bein all thankful, too!  *teehee*  he so generously passed on a friendship badge to several of his blogging buddies, including me!

so, this Simple Sundays post is to virtually (and sincerely) thank a few of the folks who have made me feel super welcome in the last month.  these people have taken a little extra time for me…whether its been offering me technical advice, generously commenting on my posts (which boosts the baby blogger ego! LOL), or always having something positive and thought-provoking to say on his/her blog.  each day i enjoy stopping over at your places and giving you my support (and friendship!) as well!

like rolando said when he passed on this badge, please dont feel this is another award you need to display or link back to me.  its just a symbol of my appreciation for the time youve taken to get to know me  

…or if we dont know each other too well yet, i am anticipating our blogging buddyship growing!  hehe

so with that, i would like to thankfully give this friendship badge to the following folks!

rolando, of course!  he’s genuine and one-of-a-kind, and makes sure everyone feels at home and special in the big-ole-blogosphere.  not to mention he’s funny, thoughtful and caring, as anyone who visits his playground will say it’s easy to see!!     

val, whom i’ve known for over a year now…she’s a member of my yahoo group.  despite being diagnosed with diabetes and breast cancer both last year, she has been a positive, inspiring and amazing woman…and she loves the Lord and isnt afraid to share it! i love ya, girl!!

amy, whose blog i absosmurfly love, because you never know what she might be thinking about day to day and it always seems to coincide with something goin on in my world.  she’s as sweet as apple pie (with whipped cream of course!) and her honesty about life is so admirable and REAL.  i really feel like i identify with her! 

beenzzz, erina and jessica…all women who have different ways to express their feelings and life–beenzzz says it like it is and also lets us see through the eyes of her camera , erina through her beautiful prose, and jessica through humor and down-to-earth, witty honesty.  they all fill a special spot in my bloggy heart

mr. grudge and the uneasy supplicant for their amazing, passionate writing talent and being so generous as to publish their works online for us to enjoy.  they are both an inspiration to me as a closet-wannabe-writer!

i hope so, because she makes me laugh, and she’s one tough minded chicky and one smart cookie!  plus the Simple Sundays is her creation =) 

intrepid–a blogger who’s somewhat mysterious, but whose writing and blog ideas i thoroughly enjoy reading   also, with myself not being very well traveled…i’m looking forward to finding out where he’s been and what he’s done! 

and last, but NOT least …brent, who never ceases to crack me up or send me off snickering.  *teehee*  plus, i just LOOVEE his nested commenting system.  its super cool. LOL.   i dont know if he likes awards, but im giving him this one anyway. neener-neener-neeeenerrrrr!

i am looking forward to getting to know all of you better!!  i am thankful for your expressions of creativity–whatever they may be.  in one way or another, they all inspire a part of me to laugh, think, appreciate life and dream!     

have a wonderful rest of your sunday!! **HUGS**

~jos~
 

virtual thankfulness :) November 18, 2007

i was in the middle of typing up a blog entry for today, and it involved thanking a few special people i’ve gotten to know a tad bit since i’ve moved to the big-ole-blogosphere just a little over a month ago. 

then i noticed rolando over at r playground had a new post, so i hopped over there…and by golly, he was bein all thankful, too!  *teehee*  he so generously passed on a friendship badge to several of his blogging buddies, including me!

so, this Simple Sundays post is to virtually (and sincerely) thank a few of the folks who have made me feel super welcome in the last month.  these people have taken a little extra time for me…whether its been offering me technical advice, generously commenting on my posts (which boosts the baby blogger ego! LOL), or always having something positive and thought-provoking to say on his/her blog.  each day i enjoy stopping over at your places and giving you my support (and friendship!) as well!

like rolando said when he passed on this badge, please dont feel this is another award you need to display or link back to me.  its just a symbol of my appreciation for the time youve taken to get to know me  

…or if we dont know each other too well yet, i am anticipating our blogging buddyship growing!  hehe

so with that, i would like to thankfully give this friendship badge to the following folks!

rolando, of course!  he’s genuine and one-of-a-kind, and makes sure everyone feels at home and special in the big-ole-blogosphere.  not to mention he’s funny, thoughtful and caring, as anyone who visits his playground will say it’s easy to see!!     

val, whom i’ve known for over a year now…she’s a member of my yahoo group.  despite being diagnosed with diabetes and breast cancer both last year, she has been a positive, inspiring and amazing woman…and she loves the Lord and isnt afraid to share it! i love ya, girl!!

amy, whose blog i absosmurfly love, because you never know what she might be thinking about day to day and it always seems to coincide with something goin on in my world.  she’s as sweet as apple pie (with whipped cream of course!) and her honesty about life is so admirable and REAL.  i really feel like i identify with her! 

beenzzz, erina and jessica…all women who have different ways to express their feelings and life–beenzzz says it like it is and also lets us see through the eyes of her camera , erina through her beautiful prose, and jessica through humor and down-to-earth, witty honesty.  they all fill a special spot in my bloggy heart

mr. grudge and the uneasy supplicant for their amazing, passionate writing talent and being so generous as to publish their works online for us to enjoy.  they are both an inspiration to me as a closet-wannabe-writer!

i hope so, because she makes me laugh, and she’s one tough minded chicky and one smart cookie!  plus the Simple Sundays is her creation =) 

intrepid–a blogger who’s somewhat mysterious, but whose writing and blog ideas i thoroughly enjoy reading   also, with myself not being very well traveled…i’m looking forward to finding out where he’s been and what he’s done! 

and last, but NOT least …brent, who never ceases to crack me up or send me off snickering.  *teehee*  plus, i just LOOVEE his nested commenting system.  its super cool. LOL.   i dont know if he likes awards, but im giving him this one anyway. neener-neener-neeeenerrrrr!

i am looking forward to getting to know all of you better!!  i am thankful for your expressions of creativity–whatever they may be.  in one way or another, they all inspire a part of me to laugh, think, appreciate life and dream!     

have a wonderful rest of your sunday!! **HUGS**

~jos~
 

back in the land of cheese and brats October 31, 2007

hey!!

(oh by the way…that’s not "brats" like kids…that’s "brats" like bratwurst. LOL!)

welp im back in the "blog office" again.  we just got back from a fun, exciting trip to visit some friends and do some sight-seeing in the south!  yep, us yanks (me, hubby and the dog) went down to atlanta for hubby to visit a friend and for me to catch up with my old friend from high school!  remember the girl i said i hadnt seen in 15 years?  well, she lives near atlanta as well so i spent a few days with her and we had a BLAST! =D

we spent one afternoon leafing thru tons of old pix and looking through my high school scrapbook.  we laughed so hard i thought i’d finally cough up my tonsils!! hahah!!!  for example, here’s something goofy i kept:

fry box from 1989!isnt it funny how almost 20 years later you ask yourself WHY in the heck you’d save a mcd’s fry container? LOL!  i mean, i’ve seen WAYyyyy too many of those in my life   but, this one holds a special memory! 

kelly and i also laughed so hard at a rap we wrote (of course, we rapped it again–and still had it memorized! hehe!!), some goofy pictures we drew of our boyfriends (hers was drawn as a clown LOL) and a strange comic strip sort of thing we wrote about a guy we knew that evolved into a basketball-playing frog.  HAHA!! 

oh now, come on, you did weerd stuff like that in high school, too!  and some of you probably still do teehee!

then we spent the evening in a 7-acre corn maze.  it was SO AWESOME!!  strangely enough, with me being a hoosier, this was the first corn maze i’ve been in.  *hehe*  we went at night, so we had maglites in hand.  we got thru it in about an hour and 15 minutes!

it was hard to leave the next day, kinda like a slumber party you never want to end…but im hoping to get back down there again in the next year.  i feel so blessed to be able to reconnect with someone i thought i may never see again. 

altho we’ve both changed in a lot of ways, we still have it in us to act like a coupla goofballs and cut it up!!  and in that 15 years we’ve each been thru a lot and can shed some light on situations in each others’ lives for some perspective.  kelly is a special friend and i am so glad she’s back in my life!!  love ya, kel!  *HUGS*

on the trek back home, hubby & i stayed in asheville, NC for a night and visited the Biltmore Estate.  it was breathtaking!  and more than anything, the perfect fall weather made the whole visit perfect. (in addition to all the yummy chicken and biscuits and sausage gravy everywhere we ate. LOL)

a view from Biltmore courtyard–wouldn’t you love this back yard??

me, enjoying some mochaccino and lookin a bit haggard from all the driving *hehe*

 

 

 

 

 

 

sooooo now we’re home and getting back into the swing of real life.  it wasnt a glamorous or lengthy getaway, but it was nice to well…get away. hehe   i gotta lotta re-evaluating to do on my diet and just some lifestyle habits in general…which you will definitely be hearing about in the very near future

well, i should hop offa here for now–hope you all are having a GREAT week!!!

and kel, this is for you! ROTFL!!! >;-D

excerpt from the evolution of kermi. 1990.

ttys!!

~jos~

life’s good :) September 25, 2007

heyyyyy

i know i know, its been a few weeks. honestly, ive thought of blogging tons of times, but what i thought of to say was just so repetitive. redundant. the same ole. hehe. i have finally (mostly) gotten out of my stressful-thinking-about-what-if-about-my-health rut. obviously i am still doing some reading and working on tweaking my diet, but i am busier, and it helps! hubby and i started going to a SNAP Fitness nearby and it feels awesome to do some weight training!! i despise cardio machines, but i force myself to walk on the treadmill at least while usually watching some goofy HGTV show or game show that gets my mind off how much i hate cardio machines. LOL! i have also been doing yoga at home (cant afford to do classes and SNAP both!) and it feels good to be sticking with that again.

what really helped me get out of my rut was going to see my naturopath a few weeks ago for a 6ish month checkup! as soon as she saw me come thru the door she said, “JOSEY! oh my gosh! you look so wonderful!” i guess i just thought i had a bit of a tan, and that’s it. LOL. but the last time she saw me was a month after my laparoscopy, and i was pretty beaten down. she commented that my skin, eyes and even hair looked “vibrant and healthy.” sounds cheesey, but i REALLY needed that!!

i mean, we look at ourselves every day in the mirror and dont say things like that to ourselves. heck, i would guess most of us dont make it a point to notice if we DO look better. i suppose i have lost another 10lb or so since seeing her last.

she spent 2.5 hours with me chatting about the changes i’ve made and finding about how im feeling now. right away during the exam she mentioned me having digestive issues, and i was so glad she figured that out. its basically caused from all the years of eating crap–mainly FAST FOOD –and has just built up inside me and is causing lots of ickies. so, for the next month i am focusing in on that cause having those problems is no fun!!!

in fact…im seriously thinking about just ditching fast food forever. ohhhh the pain of thinking of no more big mac special sauce or oreo sundaes from BK!! :’(

but here’s the thing–in the last month, every single time i eat out (usually fast food), just a few hours later i go on this funky sneezing fest! then for the next 2-3 days i am miserable–sneezing, stuffed, chapped nose, headache, etc… i told my naturopath about it and she said as time passes and we rid our bodies of built-up toxins (or even sometimes if we are just wayyyy too overloaded with them), we become more sensitive to when we consume them (or even use them on our bodies). i believe it!!

so, this is a VERY good deterrent for me to NOT eat fast food. in fact, i was telling my hubby just last nite that im almost to the point of not feeling as if it is a “treat” anymore. it just makes me miserable after snarfing it! in many ways i am thankful for this because my battle with fast food has snowballed into a lot of stress for me lately. not only do i not want to participate in the sneeze-fest, but it is more apparent to me that what is in that “food” is not being accepted by my body. its trying to tell me something!!

so let’s see. what else is goin on here…? *thinks*

well, one thing that has really helped me this last week especially, is a good old buddy of mine whom i’ve gotten back in touch with this summer. she moved away my senior year of high school and we’ve not seen each other since (15 years if you MUST know. )!

i am actually going to visit her at the end of october and am SO EXCITED! how she has helped me is to completely re-inspire me to be enthusiastic about eating healthily and just getting healthy in general. despite her own limitations because of weight, health issues, and habits, in the last few weeks she has gone from eating fast food 2 or more times a day and not being able to handle walking around the grocery store to shopping once a week for almost all her meals, COOKING, and going on walks or 15 minute dance sessions around the house!!

…and her mood has drastically improved, and she doesnt feel as winded walking up stairs…and she is totally stoked about eating home-cooked food! ISNT THAT AWESOME??

and here i am, miss “i know all about nutrition and exercise,” whining that i cant have fast food, making excuses to skip exercising, and crying about poor-me-why-is-life-so-unfair!!!

i have absosmurfly NO REASON to be like that!

kelly has helped me reassess my thinking and realize how fortunate i am to have the knowledge i do. what a waste for me to not follow thru. i am so thrilled to be here for her and help her along her journey, but she has no clue how much she is inspiring me as well. she has many more limitations than me, but she is doing it anyway! we’ll both have bumps in the road, but i couldnt be happier to be able to share struggles AND successes with her in this area of life!! it is making a difference in her happiness already!!

welp alrighty, i should head outta here. gonna skip on over to the gym soon! have an AWESOME week!!!!

~jos~

life’s good :) September 25, 2007

heyyyyy

i know i know, its been a few weeks. honestly, ive thought of blogging tons of times, but what i thought of to say was just so repetitive. redundant. the same ole. hehe. i have finally (mostly) gotten out of my stressful-thinking-about-what-if-about-my-health rut. obviously i am still doing some reading and working on tweaking my diet, but i am busier, and it helps! hubby and i started going to a SNAP Fitness nearby and it feels awesome to do some weight training!! i despise cardio machines, but i force myself to walk on the treadmill at least while usually watching some goofy HGTV show or game show that gets my mind off how much i hate cardio machines. LOL! i have also been doing yoga at home (cant afford to do classes and SNAP both!) and it feels good to be sticking with that again.

what really helped me get out of my rut was going to see my naturopath a few weeks ago for a 6ish month checkup! as soon as she saw me come thru the door she said, “JOSEY! oh my gosh! you look so wonderful!” i guess i just thought i had a bit of a tan, and that’s it. LOL. but the last time she saw me was a month after my laparoscopy, and i was pretty beaten down. she commented that my skin, eyes and even hair looked “vibrant and healthy.” sounds cheesey, but i REALLY needed that!!

i mean, we look at ourselves every day in the mirror and dont say things like that to ourselves. heck, i would guess most of us dont make it a point to notice if we DO look better. i suppose i have lost another 10lb or so since seeing her last.

she spent 2.5 hours with me chatting about the changes i’ve made and finding about how im feeling now. right away during the exam she mentioned me having digestive issues, and i was so glad she figured that out. its basically caused from all the years of eating crap–mainly FAST FOOD –and has just built up inside me and is causing lots of ickies. so, for the next month i am focusing in on that cause having those problems is no fun!!!

in fact…im seriously thinking about just ditching fast food forever. ohhhh the pain of thinking of no more big mac special sauce or oreo sundaes from BK!! :’(

but here’s the thing–in the last month, every single time i eat out (usually fast food), just a few hours later i go on this funky sneezing fest! then for the next 2-3 days i am miserable–sneezing, stuffed, chapped nose, headache, etc… i told my naturopath about it and she said as time passes and we rid our bodies of built-up toxins (or even sometimes if we are just wayyyy too overloaded with them), we become more sensitive to when we consume them (or even use them on our bodies). i believe it!!

so, this is a VERY good deterrent for me to NOT eat fast food. in fact, i was telling my hubby just last nite that im almost to the point of not feeling as if it is a “treat” anymore. it just makes me miserable after snarfing it! in many ways i am thankful for this because my battle with fast food has snowballed into a lot of stress for me lately. not only do i not want to participate in the sneeze-fest, but it is more apparent to me that what is in that “food” is not being accepted by my body. its trying to tell me something!!

so let’s see. what else is goin on here…? *thinks*

well, one thing that has really helped me this last week especially, is a good old buddy of mine whom i’ve gotten back in touch with this summer. she moved away my senior year of high school and we’ve not seen each other since (15 years if you MUST know. )!

i am actually going to visit her at the end of october and am SO EXCITED! how she has helped me is to completely re-inspire me to be enthusiastic about eating healthily and just getting healthy in general. despite her own limitations because of weight, health issues, and habits, in the last few weeks she has gone from eating fast food 2 or more times a day and not being able to handle walking around the grocery store to shopping once a week for almost all her meals, COOKING, and going on walks or 15 minute dance sessions around the house!!

…and her mood has drastically improved, and she doesnt feel as winded walking up stairs…and she is totally stoked about eating home-cooked food! ISNT THAT AWESOME??

and here i am, miss “i know all about nutrition and exercise,” whining that i cant have fast food, making excuses to skip exercising, and crying about poor-me-why-is-life-so-unfair!!!

i have absosmurfly NO REASON to be like that!

kelly has helped me reassess my thinking and realize how fortunate i am to have the knowledge i do. what a waste for me to not follow thru. i am so thrilled to be here for her and help her along her journey, but she has no clue how much she is inspiring me as well. she has many more limitations than me, but she is doing it anyway! we’ll both have bumps in the road, but i couldnt be happier to be able to share struggles AND successes with her in this area of life!! it is making a difference in her happiness already!!

welp alrighty, i should head outta here. gonna skip on over to the gym soon! have an AWESOME week!!!!

~jos~

life’s good :) September 25, 2007

heyyyyy

i know i know, its been a few weeks. honestly, ive thought of blogging tons of times, but what i thought of to say was just so repetitive. redundant. the same ole. hehe. i have finally (mostly) gotten out of my stressful-thinking-about-what-if-about-my-health rut. obviously i am still doing some reading and working on tweaking my diet, but i am busier, and it helps! hubby and i started going to a SNAP Fitness nearby and it feels awesome to do some weight training!! i despise cardio machines, but i force myself to walk on the treadmill at least while usually watching some goofy HGTV show or game show that gets my mind off how much i hate cardio machines. LOL! i have also been doing yoga at home (cant afford to do classes and SNAP both!) and it feels good to be sticking with that again.

what really helped me get out of my rut was going to see my naturopath a few weeks ago for a 6ish month checkup! as soon as she saw me come thru the door she said, “JOSEY! oh my gosh! you look so wonderful!” i guess i just thought i had a bit of a tan, and that’s it. LOL. but the last time she saw me was a month after my laparoscopy, and i was pretty beaten down. she commented that my skin, eyes and even hair looked “vibrant and healthy.” sounds cheesey, but i REALLY needed that!!

i mean, we look at ourselves every day in the mirror and dont say things like that to ourselves. heck, i would guess most of us dont make it a point to notice if we DO look better. i suppose i have lost another 10lb or so since seeing her last.

she spent 2.5 hours with me chatting about the changes i’ve made and finding about how im feeling now. right away during the exam she mentioned me having digestive issues, and i was so glad she figured that out. its basically caused from all the years of eating crap–mainly FAST FOOD –and has just built up inside me and is causing lots of ickies. so, for the next month i am focusing in on that cause having those problems is no fun!!!

in fact…im seriously thinking about just ditching fast food forever. ohhhh the pain of thinking of no more big mac special sauce or oreo sundaes from BK!! :’(

but here’s the thing–in the last month, every single time i eat out (usually fast food), just a few hours later i go on this funky sneezing fest! then for the next 2-3 days i am miserable–sneezing, stuffed, chapped nose, headache, etc… i told my naturopath about it and she said as time passes and we rid our bodies of built-up toxins (or even sometimes if we are just wayyyy too overloaded with them), we become more sensitive to when we consume them (or even use them on our bodies). i believe it!!

so, this is a VERY good deterrent for me to NOT eat fast food. in fact, i was telling my hubby just last nite that im almost to the point of not feeling as if it is a “treat” anymore. it just makes me miserable after snarfing it! in many ways i am thankful for this because my battle with fast food has snowballed into a lot of stress for me lately. not only do i not want to participate in the sneeze-fest, but it is more apparent to me that what is in that “food” is not being accepted by my body. its trying to tell me something!!

so let’s see. what else is goin on here…? *thinks*

well, one thing that has really helped me this last week especially, is a good old buddy of mine whom i’ve gotten back in touch with this summer. she moved away my senior year of high school and we’ve not seen each other since (15 years if you MUST know. )!

i am actually going to visit her at the end of october and am SO EXCITED! how she has helped me is to completely re-inspire me to be enthusiastic about eating healthily and just getting healthy in general. despite her own limitations because of weight, health issues, and habits, in the last few weeks she has gone from eating fast food 2 or more times a day and not being able to handle walking around the grocery store to shopping once a week for almost all her meals, COOKING, and going on walks or 15 minute dance sessions around the house!!

…and her mood has drastically improved, and she doesnt feel as winded walking up stairs…and she is totally stoked about eating home-cooked food! ISNT THAT AWESOME??

and here i am, miss “i know all about nutrition and exercise,” whining that i cant have fast food, making excuses to skip exercising, and crying about poor-me-why-is-life-so-unfair!!!

i have absosmurfly NO REASON to be like that!

kelly has helped me reassess my thinking and realize how fortunate i am to have the knowledge i do. what a waste for me to not follow thru. i am so thrilled to be here for her and help her along her journey, but she has no clue how much she is inspiring me as well. she has many more limitations than me, but she is doing it anyway! we’ll both have bumps in the road, but i couldnt be happier to be able to share struggles AND successes with her in this area of life!! it is making a difference in her happiness already!!

welp alrighty, i should head outta here. gonna skip on over to the gym soon! have an AWESOME week!!!!

~jos~

i’m back! August 16, 2007

wow, its been quite a while since i’ve written…but to me, it seems like only a week or so ago!! hehe!

well, all our guests have come and gone…in quite a blink of an eye 8^| we had an AWESOME time, first with my sister, hubby, daughter and son staying with us for 4 days…then the kids stayed for the following week.

then, while the kids were still here, one of my hubby’s old buddies was passing thru town, and his wife and kids stayed with us for the weekend. during that time we had a cookout/get together for the “crew” of old friends since the one was back in town…so that was a blast having everyone over!

so, over the span of 2 weeks, we went from just me and hubby (and the pets of course LOL) to as many as 6 more people staying in the house…plus around 15 for the day when we had the cookout. we had so much fun and im so bored now that everyone’s gone! HAHAH!!

okay well, so not to be a downer, but this week my motivation has been NIL. it sucks!! i havent eaten well, i havent even showered every day! i’ve been watching tons of tv, which i rarely do, and havent really been a very good domestic princess! LOL!

i know most of it is because i went from being so busy and organized while everyone was here–which i loved–but then BAM! they were all gone, so now its back to the old routine and it is so slow-paced *hehe* i know i would be so much happier having a kid to take care of or SOMETHING…!!! hopefully one day that will be true

then, in just a few short weeks is my bday! i was reallllllly hoping to be under 200 (aka my 10% loss goal) for that. i still might, if i get my act together ASAP. i dont want this to be another bday where i say…”if i’d have only stuck with it i could have reached that goal!!” ah well. i guess i cant whine…because i HAVE lost about 20lb this year, and that is something to be proud of, right?? RIGHT!

well i did manage to get some things done around the house today…sheets washed…clean clothes and towels put away…beds remade…and ive got a few other things in progress…and i do feel better

i just feel like im starting to get too hard on myself, cause for some reason if i lose my motivational groove then i eat junk, start to get all hermity, and start feeling sorry for myself. you know, all that mean self-talk like “you are a fat slob! look at all those other pretty women!” and “you are such a bad wife…you have all day to keep this house clean and you havent done a thing!”

and the worst one for me…”you’ll never be healthier, so why even bother??”

welp, im telling myself now that i am NOT a fat slob, that im a GREAT wife (im pretty sure hubby thinks so! ), and i AM healthier than i was a year ago…baby steps!!!

hmmm i guess this post is turning out to be a cheer-up letter to myself. LOL! well, im allowed to do that so dangit i am!! i suppose cheering ourselves up is something we’re not really programmed to do, is it?

many times we expect others in our lives to be RIGHT there, anytime we need something (esp our significant other). well…sometimes they are…but if they arent (putting aside the reason!), we cant just curl up in our own ball of self-pity and play the martyr just to have an excuse to do nothing and whine!! this is typical of me!!

i rarely say it out loud, but its what goes through my head and sometimes its really damaging. not only does it push me deeper into my pity party, but then i treat others around me in a negative way.

that’s not fair. no one’s perfect, and when i need a pat on the back or some encouragement and there’s no one there to dispense it, i need to give it to myself!!

im finding that’s part of growing up i dont like it, tho. LOL. but i am doing it right now, because i know there is no reason to keep choosing to feel that way, when i have so many other things to be thankful for and happy about. so THERE, bad mood! BE GONE!! (LOL, i know, im a freak LOL)

okay, well its time for me to skedattle for now! we are going to hubby’s company party for the summer later today, and im making chicken quesadillas. should be a great time!!

its almost the weekend…ENJOY!!!

~jos~

i’m back! August 16, 2007

wow, its been quite a while since i’ve written…but to me, it seems like only a week or so ago!! hehe!

well, all our guests have come and gone…in quite a blink of an eye 8^| we had an AWESOME time, first with my sister, hubby, daughter and son staying with us for 4 days…then the kids stayed for the following week.

then, while the kids were still here, one of my hubby’s old buddies was passing thru town, and his wife and kids stayed with us for the weekend. during that time we had a cookout/get together for the “crew” of old friends since the one was back in town…so that was a blast having everyone over!

so, over the span of 2 weeks, we went from just me and hubby (and the pets of course LOL) to as many as 6 more people staying in the house…plus around 15 for the day when we had the cookout. we had so much fun and im so bored now that everyone’s gone! HAHAH!!

okay well, so not to be a downer, but this week my motivation has been NIL. it sucks!! i havent eaten well, i havent even showered every day! i’ve been watching tons of tv, which i rarely do, and havent really been a very good domestic princess! LOL!

i know most of it is because i went from being so busy and organized while everyone was here–which i loved–but then BAM! they were all gone, so now its back to the old routine and it is so slow-paced *hehe* i know i would be so much happier having a kid to take care of or SOMETHING…!!! hopefully one day that will be true

then, in just a few short weeks is my bday! i was reallllllly hoping to be under 200 (aka my 10% loss goal) for that. i still might, if i get my act together ASAP. i dont want this to be another bday where i say…”if i’d have only stuck with it i could have reached that goal!!” ah well. i guess i cant whine…because i HAVE lost about 20lb this year, and that is something to be proud of, right?? RIGHT!

well i did manage to get some things done around the house today…sheets washed…clean clothes and towels put away…beds remade…and ive got a few other things in progress…and i do feel better

i just feel like im starting to get too hard on myself, cause for some reason if i lose my motivational groove then i eat junk, start to get all hermity, and start feeling sorry for myself. you know, all that mean self-talk like “you are a fat slob! look at all those other pretty women!” and “you are such a bad wife…you have all day to keep this house clean and you havent done a thing!”

and the worst one for me…”you’ll never be healthier, so why even bother??”

welp, im telling myself now that i am NOT a fat slob, that im a GREAT wife (im pretty sure hubby thinks so! ), and i AM healthier than i was a year ago…baby steps!!!

hmmm i guess this post is turning out to be a cheer-up letter to myself. LOL! well, im allowed to do that so dangit i am!! i suppose cheering ourselves up is something we’re not really programmed to do, is it?

many times we expect others in our lives to be RIGHT there, anytime we need something (esp our significant other). well…sometimes they are…but if they arent (putting aside the reason!), we cant just curl up in our own ball of self-pity and play the martyr just to have an excuse to do nothing and whine!! this is typical of me!!

i rarely say it out loud, but its what goes through my head and sometimes its really damaging. not only does it push me deeper into my pity party, but then i treat others around me in a negative way.

that’s not fair. no one’s perfect, and when i need a pat on the back or some encouragement and there’s no one there to dispense it, i need to give it to myself!!

im finding that’s part of growing up i dont like it, tho. LOL. but i am doing it right now, because i know there is no reason to keep choosing to feel that way, when i have so many other things to be thankful for and happy about. so THERE, bad mood! BE GONE!! (LOL, i know, im a freak LOL)

okay, well its time for me to skedattle for now! we are going to hubby’s company party for the summer later today, and im making chicken quesadillas. should be a great time!!

its almost the weekend…ENJOY!!!

~jos~