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a mini-health journal! December 29, 2007

Filed under: bloggy stuff, endometriosis, food food food, food logs, health, nutrition, weight loss, yoga — sillygolucky @ 2:24 pm

happy saturday morning :D

to help me stay on track on my journey to better health, i decided to create a little mini-health journal within my website :)   it’s the second link from the top called “my 2008 health journal.”  you can find the archives for it at the very bottom of the navigation bar!

i’ll still be talking about health, nutrition, weight loss, endometriosis and FOOD (of course! hehe) in sillygolucky :)   so dont think you’re off the hook. BWAAHAHA! >;-D

the health journal is for more of a daily basis check-in place for me.  i’ll post what i eat, my weigh-ins, how im feeling physically (probably TMI for some of you, but oh well! its a good way for me to track the association of certain foods to my pain levels!), and talk more specifically about my diet and my endo treatment.

if any of you are curious about anything i mention, have questions about certain foods i eat or just general health/nutrition questions/comments, PLEASE indulge me ;)   i love learning more about these things and helping others do the same!

and i would be overjoyed to help you reach some of your own personal health goals along the way =D

~josey~ :)  
 

 

a mini-health journal! December 29, 2007

Filed under: bloggy stuff, endometriosis, food food food, food logs, health, nutrition, weight loss, yoga — sillygolucky @ 2:24 pm

happy saturday morning :D

to help me stay on track on my journey to better health, i decided to create a little mini-health journal within my website :)   it’s the second link from the top called “my 2008 health journal.”  you can find the archives for it at the very bottom of the navigation bar!

i’ll still be talking about health, nutrition, weight loss, endometriosis and FOOD (of course! hehe) in sillygolucky :)   so dont think you’re off the hook. BWAAHAHA! >;-D

the health journal is for more of a daily basis check-in place for me.  i’ll post what i eat, my weigh-ins, how im feeling physically (probably TMI for some of you, but oh well! its a good way for me to track the association of certain foods to my pain levels!), and talk more specifically about my diet and my endo treatment.

if any of you are curious about anything i mention, have questions about certain foods i eat or just general health/nutrition questions/comments, PLEASE indulge me ;)   i love learning more about these things and helping others do the same!

and i would be overjoyed to help you reach some of your own personal health goals along the way =D

~josey~ :)  
 

 

the evolution of (me and) my blog December 14, 2007

Filed under: God, brain clutter, endometriosis, food food food, health, memes, nutrition, weight loss — sillygolucky @ 3:42 am

hey, folks! :D

back at the beginning of december, tish over at the kat house did this really cool meme that chronicled the “evolution” of her blog by choosing 5 of her landmark archived posts.

i commented on her post, but being the doober i am, i wasnt paying attention and put my comment on the wrong post. LOL!!

but, being the nice gal she is, she replied back anyhoo and suggested i do the meme when i gotta chance!  well, now i have the chance…so, here goes! (oh and btw, they arent in perfect chronological order, but i think you’ll still get the point! LOL.)

i started blogging in december 2005 on Yahoo 360.  blogging, for me, was (is!) basically a replacement for a hand-written journal.  i’ve been on a quest to lose weight and get healthy for ohhh about 7 years now…so it was obvious that would be the thing i’d yap about most.  my very first blog post EVER was a great start to the end of the year!

that was basically my introduction.  and i’m not gonna count it toward the 5 posts im supposed to feature in this meme. HEHE! ;)   even to this day, i dont think i could ever change a word of it and say it any better!

having my blog on the big Y kinda kept me sheltered from the REAL blogosphere (at least in my opinion)—i wasnt aware of all the commenting, the memes, and all the fun stuff that really gets your name out there.  i just wrote when i felt like it and “closed the book” and hid it back in my drawer when i was done. hehe!

i really didnt start semi-seriously blogging again until january of 2007!

i’m guessing most of my readers dont really know that im completely and totally obsessed-submersed-bookwormed into learning about and applying holistic nutrition and health stuff into my life. 

the reason why i’ve dove in head first into this stuff is because in march of this year (2007), after a diagnostic laparoscopy, i found out i have endometriosis. <—-btw, that’s my fave endometriosis site. hands down.

in fact, IRL, healing my endo (aka endometriosis) through proper nutrition is what i talk about, think about and read about a lot.  i mean LOTS a lot.   . o O (hmmm, probably why i dont have any good friends. LOL.)  especially because i believe the things i’ve learned can be applied in a myriad of ways to everyone. (yep, even men!)

i wrote time to heal the week after my laparoscopy.  i dont think i really revealed how scared i was about having endo and how big of a step it was to take a greater responsibility in my own healing by not choosing the typical path of treatment through my doctor.  but, there was just something in my gut that said—YOU have to do this.  you CAN do this.  your body WANTS to heal; you just have to give it what it needs.

the gears in my brain started churning and i knew my diet was due for an overhaul at this point.  i then found and read a book called Endometriosis: A Key to Healing through Nutrition.  this got me thinking quite a bit about what i eat and how it effects my body on a cellular level. *totally nerdy pose*

at this point, i couldnt get enough info—i was (and AM!) a total sponge!  i just kept reading and reading…about food…our bodies…about amazing things i’d never thought about before. 

after reading books like Real Food: What to Eat and Why and Nourishing Traditions i felt moved to write pass me the olden days, please…probably the most telling post i’ve written thus far about how i feel about nutrition, health and the industrialization of our world. 

then i revealed a little more, embarrassingly, in crying over chocolate cake.  this was a time, in the midst of coping with the drastic hormonal shifts, i asked myself “am i doing the right thing?” and “how much more of this can i handle?”… in addition with grappling with the fact that i may never have biological children of my own, which especially bothers me on those most hormonal days. :(   this post was a recount of one of many times i’d have days like this—days where i swore i was losing it.   days when it didnt seem fair that i had to have this disease and i let it get the best of me.

this year i’ve had a lot of doubts, but also a lot of revelations.  what’s the real reason is my reassessment of why and how i’ve come to be where i am this year…in my health, my emotions, my goals.  it felt good to admit all my grossly gluttonous habits…most of which i am thankfully tackling full-force ;)   it also feels good to look at my life by taking a step back…and truly realize where i’ve screwed up, then use that knowledge to turn it into something positive!

and finally, something that’s become quite apparent to me after all the physical and emotional pain, desperate pleadings to God, confusion and feeling alone…after all the things ive read and studied to educate myself so i can take responsibilty for my health, THIS is what it all boils down to for me:  nutrition + emotions = health. (and tho i failed to mention it—for me, spirituality is the foundation of that equation!!  that post would have been pages and pages longer had i included that aspect.  i venture to guess one of these days it will all come out. :D )

maybe most of the stuff in that last post seems a little new-agey, or far-fetched or like im getting scammed over.  but until you go through a time in your life when nothing else makes sense…when something comes along that clicks in your gut and you just know…then, well, you know…you JUST KNOW you have stumbled upon something that can—AND WILL—change your life.

and if you share it, it might change someone else’s, too. 

and this, my friends, is the evolution…of me. (through my blog.)

i’m very, very grateful you stopped by :)  

 

 

scatterbrainededness November 16, 2007

Filed under: brain clutter, endometriosis, health, nutrition, the human condition, weight loss — sillygolucky @ 2:53 am

yo!

happy almost friday!! WOOT.

so wow, we’re 15 days into NaBloPoMo.  i am ON FIRE. LOL!  it really hasnt been too hard for me to come up with junk to yack about.  altho i do have to admit the last few days have been a little harder, cause i’ve had a lot of stuff on my mind and i couldnt make up my mind what to blog about!  OHhhh the agonies of life!! ;)

like right now, im sitting here playing with my retro-plastic-rainbow slinky. *slink-clunk. slink-clunk*  listening to Orleans groovin on satellite radio.  doot doot doot, dance with meeee.  and watching my perpetually hungry cat, cadet, eye me, waiting for me to get up so he can run meeeeoorrrwwwing to the kitchen even tho he just ate. 

distractions, distractions!  

OKAY. well i’ll settle on something that kinda got me ta thinkin today.  i know, you’re saying "OH YAY. here she goes again, another rambling novel!"  of course you know that’s always possible ;)   don’t act so shocked! LOL!

today i was reading over at Beenzzz’s.  her post today made me rethink (for oh…prolly the 100th time at least!) my obsession with food, nutrition, losing weight, and health.   

i am frustrated.  plateaued.  inconsistent.  not to mention too often emotional and ticked at myself. 

i have been trying SO HARD in the last year to lose 10% of my body weight.  i started at 220 last christmas, and have gotten as low as 201.  my goal was 198.  GOSHDANGIT how come i just CANT seem to get under that freakin 200 mark!!??!?!  i was doin so awesome for a while, and then all summer i fluctuated between 201 and 206ish.  what in the heck!?!?

im starting to wear down now.  let me reiterate that i am not obsessing about "being skinny."  i am 5′3", and weighing over 200lb is NOT healthy.  i have ankle issues, sometimes achy knees, i get tired of getting winded or having my gut rolls in the way or using my boobs as a shelf for my dinner plate.  SORRY for the visuals, but this is life as a BIG GIRL.  its hard some days, harder than you know. 

i NEED to lose weight because i have endometriosis.  there’s more than one good reason to get rid of some of that extra fat im carrying around.  less fat = less estrogen = less endometriosis = less pain.  simple as that! (well not really, but i’ll spare you the details for now.) 

im beginning to wonder if i need to switch my focus.  Beenzzz’s post reminded me about how so stinkin confusing it is these days to choose a path to health and wellness. there are SO many opinions, plans and diets out there.  one minute something is good for ya, and the next it contributes to ill health.  and of course all these sources are professional and proven.  yeah, right.  can deprivation and self-denial really contribute to holistic health?  I DONT KNOW!

are they just trying to make money or are they truly healthy and legit?

is something that’s right for one person right for me, too?

is it wrong to just want to go with my gut feeling? 

HOW MANY FREAKIN OPINIONS and PLANS and BOOKS and DIETS and OPTIONS do i need to find THE REAL ANSWERS??

guh, i could go on and on.  i realize i have a problem…it’s my nature to keep searching and searching and reading and educating myself and reasoning and weighing this opinion against this one…and ultimately, i will never find the REAL ANSWER cause there is no real answer!  and so the cycle goes…

(LOL. man i am SO rambling.)

(((SIGH))) (turns off the radio.)

okay anyhoo.  when it all comes down to it, i honestly believe that what we eat determines how healthy we are holistically.  yes, cause when we eat well, we feel happy mentally too.  then usually we dont feel like sitting on our tuchases all day long and zoning out in front of the tv or puter.  then we usually spend more time with the people we love more often, so we’re happier in our relationships…see where i’m going with this?

of course that’s obviously not the ONLY path to being healthy.  there’s other things to factor in as well, like spirituality and addressing special health issues (like pain in my case, so i can feel physically able to do the things i need to do). 

why do i want so badly to be more healthy?  because i still want to try and have children, without using artificial means.  because i want to have a great quality life and do a lot of things i have planned for myself.  because i dont want to die like i’ve seen many of my family members suffer and die.  because i want to make all of my husband’s dreams come true.  because i am so TICKED at the world for screwing up our food, our land, our air, and every thing else…

…and i know i am still wearing that long, red cape when it comes to these issues…and that hopeful, positive, i-want-it-oh-so-badly, innocent kid part of me thinks that i can somehow figure out a way to beat it all.

AAARRRGHHHHHH!!!  i think i need help.  professional help! LOL!!! ;)   is this your area of expertise, i dont know? LOLOL!

…so what’s my point here?

i dont know. (no, not the girl, but really, i dont know. hehe!!)  LOL.  hey, this is just scatterbraindedness.  but its stuff i think about a lot, and its all so interconnected that sometimes i just have a hard time separating it all out into logical conversations.     

im gonna go make some kombucha.

~jos~   

 

 

what’s your type? November 5, 2007

Filed under: books, brain clutter, endometriosis, food food food, health, nutrition, weight loss — sillygolucky @ 2:40 am

tall, dark and handsome?

rogermoore.jpg

 

cute, bubbly and chatty?

gidget.jpg

 

whoooaaaa wait a minute here!  im not talkin about your type of date…*teehee* 

i’m talkin about your blood type ;)

i know, i know, how mean was that??  super CHEESEY, guh!!  well dangit, i had to get your attention somehow!  LOL!!!  you know all i do is yap about food and health, so how could you possibly believe i was going to yap about something as exciting as your date type?? hehe!!

i’m reading Eat Right For Your Type by Dr. Peter J. D’Adamo.  both naturopaths i’ve seen this year follow this theory of diet personalization.  back in april when i saw my first naturopath, i checked the book out from the library and turned to the type A section, read it, and promptly dropped it in the return bin saying, "I DON’T THINK SO!" 

i read that A types are best suited as vegetarians!?!?! :-O  hello, i was raised in small town Indiana–meat and potatoes, please!  TOFURKEY??  BLECH!

so there i was, thinkin i’d never have to go there and read that again. hehe.  this time around, i’m a little more desperate to find what foods really do work best for me.  since i have endometriosis to throw in and change it all up, it’s been that much harder to decide what i should follow.

to educate myself on what sort of diet i should adopt for the best healing, this year i’ve also read:

in some ways, all of these books have something in common.  in other ways, the last two (maybe even three) books are much different than the rest.  this is where im having some brain clutter.  the biggest difference is that the blood typing diet steers type A away from saturated fats.  the last two books (written by Sally Fallon) say that high quality saturated fats are what we are lacking and that vegetariansim is unhealthy!  im torn!

i know what you’re thinkin–just keep trying until you find what works for you!  well, i’ve been doing that for like, oh, 5 years now. LOL.  obviously i havent found it yet!

hubby and i were chatting about the "eat right for your type" diet during breakfast this morning.  i was getting discouraged because for type A, there’s some things i should try to avoid eating AT ALL.  foods that’re staples in my daily grub–like butter, tomatoes or any tomato product, black pepper, oranges, bananas, anything coconut, peppers, potatoes, wheat, and any meat except chicken or turkey.   

there’s good reason to avoid these foods, explained in logical scientific detail in the book.  and it does makes sense–i will even admit to being a bit sensitive to many of those foods!  but they TASTE good…so duh, i wanna eat em!! :P

anyhoo, i told hubby that this time i just have to buckle down and follow this dietary change.  too many times in the past i just throw in the towel if i cant believe in a nutritional plan 100%.  but who can??  well, at least i can’t!!  i’m just notta one-size-fits-all kinda gal when it comes to my food!!

so, in order to find some continuity in my health and healing of endo, im gonna try to stick with this.  BUT, im not going to jump in head first, either.  the book itself even recommends NOT doing that.  i think that’s smart!

since right now my supplement program is focusing on detoxing me–that’s including removing all the crap that’s built up in my liver, gall bladder, and digestive system to start with–it’s important that i eat foods that wont upset that delicate procedure. hehe. 

now mind you, my detox is not one of those, "scuse me, i gotta use the lil girls’ room!" kinda detoxes. LOL.  its a slow process, gradually integrating nutrients (via supplement) that my body needs to rid itself of heavy metals, gunk and more gunk, in addition to giving my body lots of chances to be able to utilize nutrients that support my endocrine system.  cause right now, my endocrine system is saying NO WAY to uptaking any sort of nutrient it needs.  i am so TOXIC that my body rejects some of what it needs.  man, that really sucks!

i feel that Eat Right For Your Type is closely related to Endometriosis: A Key To Healing Through Nutrition, so that makes me feel a little better.  when i read the latter, i felt like i had found all my answers.  that book is a MUST READ for anyone with endo…it not only educates you, but comforts you as well.

but i also want to follow what my naturopath suggests for now, so when i go back in a few months for a re-balancing they can get a good picture of my progress.  so, im hoping as i reread the former i can somehow integrate it into the latter and satisfy that need of not following just one single program ;) LOL!  am i pathetic or what! HAHA!

yikes, okay this post has been a lot of randomized rambling!  i’m sorry if you’re lost and confused! LOL!  i suppose i am just trying to reason with myself and tell myself that IT’S OKAY to question these things, and that it’s not going to kill me (hopefully. LOL.) to follow a plan for a while and see how i feel. 

before i know it, it will be a year since my diagnosis, and it has been my goal to see a marked change in my health by then.  so ive gotta get my bum in gear!!

thanks for attempting to follow along my very disorganized train of thought tonite!!  teehee :)

ttys!

~josey~    

 

what’s your type? November 5, 2007

Filed under: books, brain clutter, endometriosis, food food food, health, nutrition, weight loss — sillygolucky @ 2:40 am

tall, dark and handsome?

rogermoore.jpg

 

cute, bubbly and chatty?

gidget.jpg

 

whoooaaaa wait a minute here!  im not talkin about your type of date…*teehee* 

i’m talkin about your blood type ;)

i know, i know, how mean was that??  super CHEESEY, guh!!  well dangit, i had to get your attention somehow!  LOL!!!  you know all i do is yap about food and health, so how could you possibly believe i was going to yap about something as exciting as your date type?? hehe!!

i’m reading Eat Right For Your Type by Dr. Peter J. D’Adamo.  both naturopaths i’ve seen this year follow this theory of diet personalization.  back in april when i saw my first naturopath, i checked the book out from the library and turned to the type A section, read it, and promptly dropped it in the return bin saying, "I DON’T THINK SO!" 

i read that A types are best suited as vegetarians!?!?! :-O  hello, i was raised in small town Indiana–meat and potatoes, please!  TOFURKEY??  BLECH!

so there i was, thinkin i’d never have to go there and read that again. hehe.  this time around, i’m a little more desperate to find what foods really do work best for me.  since i have endometriosis to throw in and change it all up, it’s been that much harder to decide what i should follow.

to educate myself on what sort of diet i should adopt for the best healing, this year i’ve also read:

in some ways, all of these books have something in common.  in other ways, the last two (maybe even three) books are much different than the rest.  this is where im having some brain clutter.  the biggest difference is that the blood typing diet steers type A away from saturated fats.  the last two books (written by Sally Fallon) say that high quality saturated fats are what we are lacking and that vegetariansim is unhealthy!  im torn!

i know what you’re thinkin–just keep trying until you find what works for you!  well, i’ve been doing that for like, oh, 5 years now. LOL.  obviously i havent found it yet!

hubby and i were chatting about the "eat right for your type" diet during breakfast this morning.  i was getting discouraged because for type A, there’s some things i should try to avoid eating AT ALL.  foods that’re staples in my daily grub–like butter, tomatoes or any tomato product, black pepper, oranges, bananas, anything coconut, peppers, potatoes, wheat, and any meat except chicken or turkey.   

there’s good reason to avoid these foods, explained in logical scientific detail in the book.  and it does makes sense–i will even admit to being a bit sensitive to many of those foods!  but they TASTE good…so duh, i wanna eat em!! :P

anyhoo, i told hubby that this time i just have to buckle down and follow this dietary change.  too many times in the past i just throw in the towel if i cant believe in a nutritional plan 100%.  but who can??  well, at least i can’t!!  i’m just notta one-size-fits-all kinda gal when it comes to my food!!

so, in order to find some continuity in my health and healing of endo, im gonna try to stick with this.  BUT, im not going to jump in head first, either.  the book itself even recommends NOT doing that.  i think that’s smart!

since right now my supplement program is focusing on detoxing me–that’s including removing all the crap that’s built up in my liver, gall bladder, and digestive system to start with–it’s important that i eat foods that wont upset that delicate procedure. hehe. 

now mind you, my detox is not one of those, "scuse me, i gotta use the lil girls’ room!" kinda detoxes. LOL.  its a slow process, gradually integrating nutrients (via supplement) that my body needs to rid itself of heavy metals, gunk and more gunk, in addition to giving my body lots of chances to be able to utilize nutrients that support my endocrine system.  cause right now, my endocrine system is saying NO WAY to uptaking any sort of nutrient it needs.  i am so TOXIC that my body rejects some of what it needs.  man, that really sucks!

i feel that Eat Right For Your Type is closely related to Endometriosis: A Key To Healing Through Nutrition, so that makes me feel a little better.  when i read the latter, i felt like i had found all my answers.  that book is a MUST READ for anyone with endo…it not only educates you, but comforts you as well.

but i also want to follow what my naturopath suggests for now, so when i go back in a few months for a re-balancing they can get a good picture of my progress.  so, im hoping as i reread the former i can somehow integrate it into the latter and satisfy that need of not following just one single program ;) LOL!  am i pathetic or what! HAHA!

yikes, okay this post has been a lot of randomized rambling!  i’m sorry if you’re lost and confused! LOL!  i suppose i am just trying to reason with myself and tell myself that IT’S OKAY to question these things, and that it’s not going to kill me (hopefully. LOL.) to follow a plan for a while and see how i feel. 

before i know it, it will be a year since my diagnosis, and it has been my goal to see a marked change in my health by then.  so ive gotta get my bum in gear!!

thanks for attempting to follow along my very disorganized train of thought tonite!!  teehee :)

ttys!

~josey~    

 

what’s your type? November 5, 2007

Filed under: books, brain clutter, endometriosis, food food food, health, nutrition, weight loss — sillygolucky @ 2:40 am

tall, dark and handsome?

rogermoore.jpg

 

cute, bubbly and chatty?

gidget.jpg

 

whoooaaaa wait a minute here!  im not talkin about your type of date…*teehee* 

i’m talkin about your blood type ;)

i know, i know, how mean was that??  super CHEESEY, guh!!  well dangit, i had to get your attention somehow!  LOL!!!  you know all i do is yap about food and health, so how could you possibly believe i was going to yap about something as exciting as your date type?? hehe!!

i’m reading Eat Right For Your Type by Dr. Peter J. D’Adamo.  both naturopaths i’ve seen this year follow this theory of diet personalization.  back in april when i saw my first naturopath, i checked the book out from the library and turned to the type A section, read it, and promptly dropped it in the return bin saying, "I DON’T THINK SO!" 

i read that A types are best suited as vegetarians!?!?! :-O  hello, i was raised in small town Indiana–meat and potatoes, please!  TOFURKEY??  BLECH!

so there i was, thinkin i’d never have to go there and read that again. hehe.  this time around, i’m a little more desperate to find what foods really do work best for me.  since i have endometriosis to throw in and change it all up, it’s been that much harder to decide what i should follow.

to educate myself on what sort of diet i should adopt for the best healing, this year i’ve also read:

in some ways, all of these books have something in common.  in other ways, the last two (maybe even three) books are much different than the rest.  this is where im having some brain clutter.  the biggest difference is that the blood typing diet steers type A away from saturated fats.  the last two books (written by Sally Fallon) say that high quality saturated fats are what we are lacking and that vegetariansim is unhealthy!  im torn!

i know what you’re thinkin–just keep trying until you find what works for you!  well, i’ve been doing that for like, oh, 5 years now. LOL.  obviously i havent found it yet!

hubby and i were chatting about the "eat right for your type" diet during breakfast this morning.  i was getting discouraged because for type A, there’s some things i should try to avoid eating AT ALL.  foods that’re staples in my daily grub–like butter, tomatoes or any tomato product, black pepper, oranges, bananas, anything coconut, peppers, potatoes, wheat, and any meat except chicken or turkey.   

there’s good reason to avoid these foods, explained in logical scientific detail in the book.  and it does makes sense–i will even admit to being a bit sensitive to many of those foods!  but they TASTE good…so duh, i wanna eat em!! :P

anyhoo, i told hubby that this time i just have to buckle down and follow this dietary change.  too many times in the past i just throw in the towel if i cant believe in a nutritional plan 100%.  but who can??  well, at least i can’t!!  i’m just notta one-size-fits-all kinda gal when it comes to my food!!

so, in order to find some continuity in my health and healing of endo, im gonna try to stick with this.  BUT, im not going to jump in head first, either.  the book itself even recommends NOT doing that.  i think that’s smart!

since right now my supplement program is focusing on detoxing me–that’s including removing all the crap that’s built up in my liver, gall bladder, and digestive system to start with–it’s important that i eat foods that wont upset that delicate procedure. hehe. 

now mind you, my detox is not one of those, "scuse me, i gotta use the lil girls’ room!" kinda detoxes. LOL.  its a slow process, gradually integrating nutrients (via supplement) that my body needs to rid itself of heavy metals, gunk and more gunk, in addition to giving my body lots of chances to be able to utilize nutrients that support my endocrine system.  cause right now, my endocrine system is saying NO WAY to uptaking any sort of nutrient it needs.  i am so TOXIC that my body rejects some of what it needs.  man, that really sucks!

i feel that Eat Right For Your Type is closely related to Endometriosis: A Key To Healing Through Nutrition, so that makes me feel a little better.  when i read the latter, i felt like i had found all my answers.  that book is a MUST READ for anyone with endo…it not only educates you, but comforts you as well.

but i also want to follow what my naturopath suggests for now, so when i go back in a few months for a re-balancing they can get a good picture of my progress.  so, im hoping as i reread the former i can somehow integrate it into the latter and satisfy that need of not following just one single program ;) LOL!  am i pathetic or what! HAHA!

yikes, okay this post has been a lot of randomized rambling!  i’m sorry if you’re lost and confused! LOL!  i suppose i am just trying to reason with myself and tell myself that IT’S OKAY to question these things, and that it’s not going to kill me (hopefully. LOL.) to follow a plan for a while and see how i feel. 

before i know it, it will be a year since my diagnosis, and it has been my goal to see a marked change in my health by then.  so ive gotta get my bum in gear!!

thanks for attempting to follow along my very disorganized train of thought tonite!!  teehee :)

ttys!

~josey~    

 

dissatisfied with the satisfied November 4, 2007

Filed under: bloggy stuff, brain clutter, chit chat, endometriosis — sillygolucky @ 12:07 am

happy weekend :)

how ya’ll doin?  im sittin here listening to tons of sappy music…crystal gayle, air supply, the carpenters, barry manilow…hehe :D   no, im not lovesick or anything like that *giggle*  i just love easy listenin stuff.  it just mellows me out, especially when im feeling a tad bit high-strung over health issues and all that junk.  plus hubby likes it, and i like to see him enjoying the music too :) (what wife doesnt LOVE seeing her hubby mouthing the words to barry??? LOL!) 

so meanwhile, i’ve been workin on adding more blog archives…whew, its a long process adding them manually!  i never really tagged my old posts, so im reading thru them, tagging them, and adding new categories as i go along.  funstuff! 

im also attempting to break up my page-long-long-winded paragraphs ;)   obviously it doesnt shorten your reading time, but hopefully it helps make things look not-so-daunting!  hehe ;)   now i just hope someone actually reads them! LOL!  i assume the category tagging helps people find what they’re interested in.  :D

soooo after my goofy post last night, in addition to re-reading so much of my archives, it got me to thinkin why i honestly have this blog.  i know i’ve somewhat discussed it recently, but i was decently overwhelmed and my typical over-analytic self ;)   *teehee* 

i thought it might be a good idea to let anyone who’s new to my blog in on some of the main issues i’m dealing with, so you know where im comin from during my ramblings!

earlier this year via diagnostic laparoscopy, i found out i have endometriosis.  most women have at least heard of it, and many men haven’t, since it’s 99.9% a woman’s disease (yes, strangely enough, endometriosis has been found in a few men!).  for several months before my diagnosis and since, ive experienced tremendous amounts of physical pain, along with my fair share of mental anguish. 

i’ve always been pegged as the bubbly, happy, positive funny girl…but since the endometriosis has presented itself in a more dramatic fashion, namely through completely whacked-out hormones and a lot of frustrating pain (to only name a few…), i’ve been miss-super-sensitive-i-cry-at-the-drop-of-a-hat, woken up in the middle of the night with panic attacks, and have generally questioned my mental state and happiness. 

i’ve also been spotted spacing out, completely procrastinating (which is NOT my virgo nature), asking God why i am even here if i cant have kids, and repeatedly soaking the chest of my hubby’s tshirts with oodles of tears after i’ve consumed massive amounts of chocolate and ice cream.

i know, many of you might say, well isnt that the typical life of a woman?  maybe somewhat ;)   but having endometriosis has caused me to become passionate about HEALING IT.  the mood swings, the pain, the constant wondering about my identity and purpose in a way that’s extremely dramatic isn’t normal or healthy. 

from what ive heard and read, women who take the conventional western medicine route feel even worse, gain weight, and mainly feel like they are going insane. literally!  the treatment usually involves 3-6 months of Lupron injections, which mimics menopause by dramatically lowering estrogen (this slows down endometrial growth).  several weeks after the injections stop, they feel better for a few to many months until its time to start the Lupron again because the endo begins growing again.

there’s a lot more to it, and i have a whole section of my blogsite set aside (still in the works!) to explain all of this from my point of view.  :)

now i donno about you, but this "treatment" doesnt sound too pleasant to me.  im about HEALING, not band-aiding the illness.  so without getting too technical, i’ll just say that i have chosen to forgo any conventional treatments and find out why i even have endometriosis in the first place and treat those health issues instead. 

its a highly debated topic–the cause of endometriosis–but more and more theories are coming to light with good, solid research to support them.  personally, i feel its layers and layers of other health issues that compound and feed off each other…and those are all related to our industrialized world.

pesticides. xenoestrogens. pollution. preservatives. additives. synthetics. trans fats. eating processed foods. overloaded stressful lives. general lack of self-care. absence of spirituality.  to me, it just makes sense that not just endometriosis, but nearly all our modern-day diseases–physical AND mental–stem from some, all, or a combination of these things, and obviously tons of other things not listed.  how could this not be true?

its really stressful to even delve into the sadness of what our marvelously technological society is doing to reduce our life span.  we are so intelligent, so resourceful–which in turn enables us to artificially prolong our miserable, diseased lives with prescriptions and other means. 

if we are really so intuitive, why dont we do more to get to the real causes of disease?  why is it considered weird or witch doctory or hippy or unconventional to want to do this in a natural way? 

are greed and impatience truly our nature in healthcare?  how can we be satisfied with this and not act on it??

whew okay, i better stop before i end up with another hour-long post. *hehe* ;)

but anyhoo, this is where i am in my life.  these are the issues im questioning because of my health, my goals, my beliefs and my needs.

i chronicle these days in hopes of finding others who have simiar views, in hopes of encouraging, inspiring, provoking thought…and lastly, as an outlet for my victories and dark times as i struggle and smile through this soul-growing period of my life.

~jos~    

 

nutrition + emotions = health November 2, 2007

Filed under: endometriosis, health, nutrition — sillygolucky @ 9:05 pm

yesterday i had an enlightening and comforting appointment at a holistic health and wellness center.  as i’ve discussed before, i’ve been to a naturopath a few times this year, but since i have suspicions about a returning cyst in my ovary, i decided to get a second opinion just to make sure i’m covering all my bases in treatment and healing.

this time, instead of seeing a holistic practitioner operating on her own, i decided to visit a “center” that employs several different holistic/complementary therapy people.  the center also employs a true M.D., so they offer TONS of tests/labwork that can be done to help zoom in on your own specific biological needs and so they can get a true picture of your health. 

i chose to have a nutritional balance done, which is also what i had previously with my naturopath, but this center does it a little differently and more comprehensively.  after talking to one of the staff members (whom i was acquainted with before this appointment), i decided this was a good place to start!

two practitioners performed the balance.  i lied on a table with my feet slightly hanging off the end.  while one applied a magnet with a light touch to every the major organ area and energy meridians all over my body, the other practitioner, at each stop, held both of my feet under my heels with equal pressure and lifted lightly.  if the magneted area was weak, my right foot would rise quickly and higher than my left.  it was really weird—but you can tell they are not making it move.  you’d be able to tell if they were pushing it!

after the initial testing, they collaborated and decided what supplements may help my body find balance.  at this point they retested each area, lying the actual supplement on my stomach so my body’s energy fields could sense them.  now this is where i have struggled in the past with having a true belief that this method works, so i flat out asked them to explain it to me! LOL! 

what they described is that our body is made up of energy fields—essentially and scientifically, electromagnetic fields.  this is how our heart beats, how we have circulation, how our synapses work, everything!  those energy fields are outwardly sensitive as well—even moreso than our sense of touch with feeling hot or cold.  for example, you know how you can walk into a room or building or group of people and just “have a feeling?”  like a vibe if you may…whether it be bad or good…we’ve all had them in one way or another. 

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acupoints for energy meridians.
well, this is the same “sensing” your energy fields do during the nutritional balance.  the balancing procedure encouraged my body to tell them whether it has a “good vibe” or a “bad vibe” about the supplement.  then they experimented with the dosage until my body responded “YES! that’s it!”  to me this makes perfect sense! (tho honestly, my explanation does the experience no good! LOL!  its hard to explain if you cant be there to feel it!) 

at one point near the end, when most all of the supplements i’d needed were lying on me, they started testing me with some essential oil blends.  they layed the unopened bottle on me—there was no scent.  but suddenly i started feeling dizzy and i told them.  it was almost kinda freaky!  i wasnt hungry, or nervous, or anything like that.  they smiled and reassured me that it was normal, and actually very good—a sign that my body’s energy fields were attempting to balance. 

but then shortly thereafter, i felt like crying!  it was like that one time in yoga class when i just couldnt hold back the tears and there was absosmurfly no reason to cry!  i told them, and they nodded to each other in agreement that the essential oils they were testing on me were the ones i needed.  they handed me some kleenexes and told me to cry away! heehee!  my body was literally crying out that this was something i need.  they reassured me that i shouldnt hold back the tears—it’s part of healing, not just mentally, but physically, too. 

after everything was complete, they showed me a book that lists connections between the essential oils, a certain emotion or feeling, and areas/organs of the body.  i cried again and asked, “how can you know this??”  over the years, i have had unexplained pains in certain areas of my body in addition to the pain endometriosis has brought.  all 4 essential oil blends coincided with the areas i’ve had those pains. 

and then when i saw the emotions that were attached—loss of identity, fear of rejection, disappointment, need of recognition, just to name a few—i lost it.  it just made perfect sense, and i was at the same time comforted that i now have a way to release these emotions i’ve been harboring and that have been contributing to my ill health!  mentally AND physically!! 

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the flower of cananga odorata, or ylang ylang, the mother of one of my favorite essential oils.
negative emotions we hold inside our hearts and minds not only
effect our attitudes, but directly effect our health as well.  i now sincerely believe this!  a build-up of those negative emotions eventually leads to illness and disease.  of course its not the only factor; there are environmental and nutritional factors, too.  but the emotional one is the one we most forget about because we just stuff things down and try to forget about them!

i truly believe working with our bodies and how they were made to find homeostasis is really where we should start.  today i am starting on my new supplemental program to help my body heal!  i am also re-evaluating my diet and making some changes again.  i’ll update you on that soon :)

if you’re curious…what they found during my balance is that not only do i have emotional baggage to free, but i have a HUGE toxin overload in my organs, especially my liver and gall bladder.  they were shocked that a 33 year old woman could be as toxic as i am. LOL!!  i am NOT proud of it! ;)

there were several supplements my body needs to balance, but because of the high level of toxicity i cant even process it.  it would make me pretty sick.  my poor gall bladder and liver are coughing and sputtering and crying out for help!  and my adrenal glands are shot from pumping out cortisol like crazy (from anxiety and stress), and in turn its whacked out my thyroid and pituitary glands as well. 

the adrenal glands also use B vits to function…and ive had this horrible crack in the corner of my mouth off and on for over a decade, which now i know is a sign of B vit deficiency.  i’ve been deficient for THAT LONG! and my adrenals have been exhausted for THAT LONG!  that’s a long time for someone who’s as young as i am.  its scary! 

im glad to know these glands can be nourished and healed—i have begun to wonder if i have the beginnings of senility! LOL!!  i struggle a lot finding the right words when i talk…i forget things a LOT…and its not “natural aging.”  it frustrates me quite a bit.  im way too young to be senile yet! LOL!!  improperly functioning endocrine glands make ya feel like you are losing it—literally!!

we really have no clue how horribly we treat our bodies, and we expect them to stay healthy.  yikes. 

i venture to guess that many people of my generation are headed toward the same toxic overload if they havent already.  we’re the fast food generation, and the one that uses more chemicals in anything and everything than any so far.  but to our advantage, we’re curious and intelligent, and we want to be healthier, and many of us are willing to be open-minded to natural methods of restoring our health.

wow, i guess i’ve blabbled on forever, eh?? ;)    hehe!  well, yesterday’s experience honestly hit home with me.  i feel like i’ve got a new path to blaze and that there’s hope.  there’s TONS more to my new plan, but to avoid more novel-length posts, i’ll spread it out a little. ;)  *hehe* 

so i suppose in a nutshell i’ve learned:

poor nutrition + negative emotions = ill health

and

balanced nutrition + stable emotions (and removing negative ones) = good health!  

i’m on my way to good health, and i’m glad you’re joining me by stopping by my blabby blog :)   i appreciate it.

~josey~

 

update from the doc October 3, 2007

Filed under: endometriosis, weight loss — sillygolucky @ 4:52 pm

hiya!!

before i give the update…i just have to say…this morning the scale said 200.6! *SUPERLOUDSCRREEEAAAAMMMM!* heheh! im so excited the scale is going downdowndown. i’ve been a good girl this week and have stuck to my exercise/yoga and my menu as well. NO FAKE FOOD! (that’s my new word for FAST food. hehe) i just know this is going to be the month!!!

soooo…i had a self-scheduled follow-up dr appt with the OB/GYN this morning…well, here’s an excerpt of what i posted in my yahoo group, just so i dont have to retype it all! hehe yes, im lazy!!

it wasnt bad, not perfect either…he did a quick pelvic exam and then an ultrasound. i MIGHT have another endometrial cyst in my ovary. there were two showing up–one was perfectly normal, clear…a functional cyst, aka an egg. but the other one was a little cloudy, like my old chocolate cyst. it is about 12mm wide, which is about 1/3 of the size of the one they took out back in march.

so, i think what i’ll do is go back in 6 months and have it checked again…unless my pain gets REALLY bad. i am hoping and praying 1) it is just another functional cyst or 2) i can really make positive changes and make it go away!! and actually, the doc told me if i wasnt actively pursuing getting pregnant, which im not, that i should just keep doing what im doing and not worry about surgery or drugs or whatnot, even tho of course he offered up Lupron again or even Depro-Provera and others like that. and obviously i’m not going to use those no matter what!

*longpause*sigh* gosh you guys…this year, i have just read sooo many testimonials in books and online of women who change their diets, lose weight, and get healthier (that’s the simple way of putting it, obviously its more complicated than that!)…and they go back to the dr and their cysts and endo do not show up!!! I WANT TO BE ONE OF THOSE WOMEN!! I WANT IT SO BAD and now i am even more motivated to do it.

sooooo…i’m gonna keep on truckin!!! that’s the update and i’ll talk to ya’ll soon :)

happy HUMP day!

~josey~